wow long time since i have wrote in here life is going wonderful there is alot new and alot going on like,...... Im getting MARRIED june 12, 2005! so there is alot i have on me right now, but it is all amazeing a true gift from God.

every morning i wake up and i relize all over again little more then 8 months i will be married to the most amazeing, sweet, godly, wonderful, hansome man on the face of this earth.

people dont agree on everything we are doing in life such as getting married at a young age and they think that they have the right to say whatever they please and that may be true but we do not have to take there so called words of wisdom to heart. there is no crime in loveing someone and wanting to start your life forever with them and grow together. god will not let us fall on our face or leave us homeless. you do not have to go to college and become someone big to make it in life, if that is what you choose that is wonderful but if not that is wonderful to! everyone has a different dream a different goal and a different path and as long as God is in control of it all you will never fail!

Thank you lord for all you blessings, thank you for makeing ourl  path in life and always walking before us. thank you for karl j, hartman who is an amazeing wonderfiul gift to me in life, who is my best friend, my love and my soul mate for ever and always. u are an awesome God and work wonders. always go before us in life never let us take control of our relationship, let us always have faith and trust in you lord!

hmmm there is not alot else that is new...work still sucks, but it is money and gives me something to put back....school well school sucks even more!! but oh well.

heidi came home for a visit but did not stay long!! miss ya girl i pray that everything out there goes well for you.

well thats all for now i gotta get back to schoold and getting ready for work. everyone have a wonder fall and God Bless!

~*~Cass~*~

"Lord give me the strength i need for today for this week, for tihs month and evven for this life. Keep me strong, keep me like a rock no one can move when it comes to what i believe in what i have faith in what i Want. You lead me in life and i have alaways been on the right path for that i thank you, you have given me the ONE person in life that matters to me that i will spend my forever with and for that i thank you, you have kept me strong this long i know at times i tried to take things into my own hands but you proved to be bigger and better then me and out did me by so so much. i have learn so many lessons that i will never forget and will always live by. You have kept me and karl under you wing and walk beside us every step of the way and till we leave this world you always will. and i thank you for that!

 Lord i burn for you, i want to make you happy in all i do in life. i want you to shine through me always and forever. i want those around me even the ones who shoot me down who try to trip me, when they look at me i want them to feel a love that only you can put off. I am YOURS my lord use me and work through me in all i can do"

UGGGGGGGGGG....i hate work at times!! most of all i hate how there are never breaks, and i hate getting told about something that i never knew was right or wrong, i love the people, well maybe 1 bothers me alot but there is always SOMEONE!!! but anyways today has sucked the only good thing about it and the only thing i really have to look forward to is when karl walks through those work doors at 9:30...then for a half hour i can smile!

and im so freakin sick of me amanda and michelle not talking i mean it's SO SO stupid...i was never mad at any of them...hahaha and to think back i have no freakin clue why we arent ther eis no reason....i was only ever upset with Josh and im just tryin to forget about it because well just because not even worth writeing about. but AMANDA MICLELLE IM NOT MAD AT YOU i have no reason lolol or whatever you may think is wrong i can asure you there isnt...lol

anyways i have to go to wonderful work now *sigh* pray for me!

Heeeeyyy....Today was pretty great!! went to fix a pool got some sun that is well needed. then me and karl fought with the computer for hours because it wasnt burning cds right!!! stuipid comps what are they good for!!!

me and karl had an awesome day we are going to see a movie tomorrow during the day!! that will be amazeing of course! AHHH thats a happy scream

summer feels like it is going by so fast...im sorta ready for winter and sorta am hateing the thought of it ever coming. not alot is new right now, oh by the way josh i understand you saying what you are feeling but please dont mock me i dont mock you and what you believe whatever that may be i dont tell you you are wrong and make fun of you!!! those are a childs games! i gonna forgive and forget just bedcause im so freakin sick of the stupid things....and i dont care what you say about me i know its bad and not nice and i dont care if you like the fact that i believe in the 1 true God, i dont care if you like my relationships or not, i dont care if you like some of my girlfriends just because they arent after you or hot doesnt mean they are bad people because they are Great. i dont have a lot of friends at all, but the 2 girl friends i have that are Good i will take up for im not like everyone else i dont talk and i dont make things up about you and even tho you can piss me off at times im not gonna act like a child about things! so it's all over all the stupid stuff and whatever. moving on.............Sooooo hey we are
REALLY going to be moveing to Greencastle soon, yay i can be closer to karl, and work.
 work is not so bad at first i felt so out of place i really didnt like that, whenever i have felt out of place i always seem to get into this nut shell type thing but it's getting alot better i am enjoying it and most of the people there!!!

ok i have to go to bed it is real late and im gonna pass out here in a min if i dont get there soon.....Goodnight all!

  *CASS*

wow it has been a little while since i last wrote in here....i almost forgot i even had it untill heidi reminded me about it..lol...um alot has happend since last entry alot of GREAT but some bad as well....but the bad i have tried to leave with a lesson! Heather is back for GOOD now, im so glad to. we will all make life very great for her back here we have all missed her so!!!!!   Creation was almost a week ago now and it was so so AMAZEING it was my family, karl and emmy and heather! being up there for that whole week really made me love seeing karl every single day and i loved wakeing up knowing he was only a few feet away, makes me look forward to what God is doing in US and what he has in store for us up ahead!!! oh my goodness i cant wait what so ever. me and karl have been talking alot makeing plans for what we are going to do with college and after college and so on. God is really guiding us and we are loveing it. someday i shall see his amazeing Godly face every single day and the time in the middle is our stepping stones! and they  are even Great.

I have had some problems with some people that are supposed to be my friends. and the big thing is 2 of them have no reason to have problems with me. I was only upset with one person and he goes and somehow someway my other 2 friends dont call, wont talk to me, wont see me, and i wasnt ever even upset with them at all i mean come on i totaly dont even have a reason to be. and i dont think 21 year olds should act so childish about some things....and when they hurt their friends no matter what it may be and it makes them cry dont look at them or call them and say "whatever you made yourself cry" please someone must really have no feelings if one can say that to there so called best friend if one is such a good friend they need to be grown up enough to see that things you say even if they dont sound painful to you, they can slice someone else and thats just the way it is. im wasnt even mad anymore wasnt mad about a thing when it cam to creation when it came to anything other then the fact that he made me cry and hurt my feelings and i just wanted to hear that he understood and he was sorry for that. but i didnt get that instead i got whatever it's all your fault, you need to grow up and get over yourself, you have nuthin but teenage drama. i mean if it was the other way around "friend" i woulod have never treated you like that i would have never say that stuff to you and i think instead of me growing up because im hurt, i think you need to grow up start careing a little more get some feelings be a FRIEND!  when you told me stuff i didnt go around and tell others i wouldnt have done that ever, but you on the other hand didnt totaly do that, i dont know if it made you feel more cool or popular but i'll just say one thing it hurts and i wish you could just open your eyes as a friend and actully see what is really wrong. 

if anything in life God has shown me who to trust and who not to he has shown me i need to hold on tight to those REAL friends and my life and tho there may be 2 i would rather have 2 great close Realy friends instead of 8 friends who talk about me who make fun of me, who just say things to my face and then play it off by saying chill i was just jokeing. God will guid me through life and with him by my side i shall not worry tho i shall make it and in the end i will be the one wise, i will be the one happy, i will be a TRUE friend, and i will be blessed!

God guid me, give me strength, always show me right from wrong, live through me shine through me to those around me. Let me reach those who need to be reached. let me love those who need love, let me be friend those who just need someone there to trust and to talk to or just be there. let me give those around me a smile instead of a frown, let me make people happy without ever haveing to change.God with you i know all this can be done!! you are my all in all you are my Daddy my amazeing friend i love you and i shall always and forever seek your beautiful face!     Yours, Cassie